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                   Search me, O God, and know my heart;                   test me and know my thoughts.          See if there is any wicked way in me,                   and lead me in the way everlasting.                            —Psalm 139.23-24

Look where I cannot see,          in my innermost workings. Look where I don't want to see,        amidst my waste and offal.

Search beneath my consciousness,          beyond my grasp, my knowledge or control. Come to me when the watchman of my ego is asleep,          enter by the back gate, unguarded, or else I would push you away,          I would not let you in.

Tell me the truth I can't determine,          not what I want, but what is. Am I receiving grace as I should,          and releasing what I do not need? Are my boundaries clear,          and the wall intact between what is truly me          and what is passing? Show me my knots of fear and clinging           and remove them by your grace.

Awaken me, O God, to the glory of this life,          the gift of your grace as your mysteries unfold within me,          your wonders, hidden and yet marvelous. Give me life, O River of Life,          and lead me in the way of love.         

                   

__________________ Steve Garnaas-Holmes Unfolding Light www.unfoldinglight.net

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