Joy and disbelieving

         ...In their joy they were disbelieving and still wondering...
                  —Luke 24.41


God,
it's all here at once,
joy and disbelieving,
dullness and wonder.

Let my joy flower,
my disbelieving keep on wondering.
Give me the faith to watch in amazement,
to finally know what I know,
to rejoice before I understand.

Wonder, lead me
where I wouldn't go without you.
O soul, drag me into the dance,
guided in your arms,
looking into my Savior's eyes,
without even knowing it.